Post 4

Um. I can't believe I'm writing this. Especially after what I wrote earlier. I think it was almost a week after I wrote that when I started falling for a guy in my ward (church congregation). And I don't think I've had a bigger crush.

He's 25 and leaving in about two weeks because he's already graduated. My heart isn't dying, but it sure pounds sometimes. I thought guys were immature until I had this "guy  W" (names are being removed for protection purposes) ask me on a date a couple weeks ago. This has been ridiculous. I can't tell if I'm just being a giddy 19 year old girl (almost 20) or if I'm actually impressed by him. Well, either way I'm impressed. He is cute, we have many similarities, he's in the Elders Quorom Presidency, I love talking with him, I think he's funny, and there's other stuff, too, but I don't want to get over my head past that stuff. That's all the surface area, basically. The rest I feel like I can just tell he's a great guy. We've been in the same ward for the last two semesters and one term and I know we wish there was more time.... I say "we" because a friend told me he said that.

GAH.